I’m already starting to nod off, so I’ll see y’all when I see ya. Night.
So, today wasn’t that interesting to be honest. I got a better understanding of the trailer I’m going to be staying in though, and it’s not good. For one, the roof leaks in about three or so places. The person who owns it probably doesn’t know about that because he left it there about four years ago and, as far as I can tell, hasn’t been back since. For another thing, it leaks in the bed area and the guy left the bed made and it kind smells like it’s been leaking for a while. Another thing I noticed is that the built-in fridge doesn’t seem to work. There’s at least one thing I can do to see if it’s the outlet it’s plugged into or if the unit itself is bad. This is probably going to be the last blog post for a bet, since I don’t have a computer that can access the nets at the moment. I’ll still use the library comps, but it’s not open till Monday. Oh, and a little tidbit I learned the other day. Above the corkboard where all the actors headshots are, we have a French flag from around the time period the play takes place in. It is, from what I’ve heard, it’s a flag from Les Miz the movie, and was donated to us by the artistic director, on the condition that they get it back when the show closes. That’s just kinda cool to me.
So today was interesting in the fact that we had pictures and it took almost two hours to take all of them. Of course, when you know that we started taking pictures at 5 pm and we have a 7 pm curtain, you can understand that nobody was happy about taking that long getting photos taken care of. That and while I was rushing to get something out on stage, somebody had put a set piece where it shouldn’t have been and I tripped over it, hurting my ankle, wrist, and ribs in the process. Didn’t help my back either. My ankle’s still sore and I’m just tired. And I’m a little depressed that the gun I keep loading for the show every day didn’t fire either time it was tried during the show, but it worked fine after the show was over. Dam actors not knowing how to properly cock a gun. The need to teach classes about that. Anyway, I’ll talk at cha on the morrow.
Eh, not much to say tonight. Nothing really exciting happened today, although I re-injured the same knee I did yesterday, and can honestly say it really didn’t feel good. Well, that’s all I got for now. I’ll see ya on the morrow.
And now, it is time for me to relinquish the computer for a time. I will get back on later though. Bye!
Well, moved some of the possessions I have with me into the little trailer. And banged my knee up good during the show, on a corner while I was trying to not be seen. It was bleeding but stopped s little while after the initial hit. The bad part about it is that there’s a red line going half-way down my shin from where I didn’t cut my leg open. This is turning into the most violent show in terms of me getting hurt. And both my knees had started to feel better from falling in that trap door.
Anyway, I don’t have much more time at the shelter, but I wanted you all to know at I do have a place to stay for the next while. I’ll be staying at the theatre in one of their little housing trailers for the remainder of the run thankfully. I sent an e-mail to most of the staff and all the actors in the show to see if they could help me find a place faster than just me by myself and one of the people who work in the office called me up and said it was alright with them if I stayed on premises. As soon as I heard that, it felt as if a great weight had been lifted from my chest. If anything, it means that I at least have more time to try to find a second job and an apartment so I can stay in the area. At worst it means that I’ve only postponed having to go back to New Mexico and my parents. I’m trying be positive with this new development though, but there’s always the feeling that the other shoe has yet to fall and I’ll be kicked in the balls even worse, to turn a phrase. The entire downside to this will be that I will be stuck with nothing that can access the internet unless I go to the library during the day. And that’s a good walk away from the shelter or the theatre, both uphill. Seriously, uphill.
Well, today was as ordinary as it can get, ever. A lot of you following me may not know what’s happened with me and Kap, and many of you may already know because of her telling you and then telling others. I don’t know tbh, but I’m gonna tell you what happened, at least from my perspective and what’s gone on since then. Kap and I got mad at each other and she threw me out. And I honestly can’t blame her, not the way I’d acted at the time. Since then I stayed the night at a mental help facility, and a couple of friends houses. ATM, I’m staying at the town’s homeless shelter and have less than a week left before I’m expected to leave. Don’t say that I’m being hard on myself for the next sentence I’m about to put down, but it was all my fault. Every single moment of unhappiness I’ve caused her has been my fault, even if I’ve ever said it was her fault, it was because of me in some way. I’m sorry for all of it and wish we could go back to when we were happy, but it’s hard to get some one who’s lost that much faith in one person to take that person back. I’m not saying it’s impossible, but It’s hard. She and I are still friends, but not as close as we used to be. And to be honest, I do wish we could go back to the beginning of our relationship and try again. But until time-travel’s invented, there’s no way to do that and I have to live with what I’ve done. And to be honest, I hope I can forgive myself someday, but it’s not gonna be today. Have a nice night.
Well, if anybody saw this post,http://miracledoc.tumblr.com/post/78305085785/well-today-was-the-day-of-the-big-gala-opening (Comp I’m using won’t open the html editor for some reason), at any time, I was being hard on myself and it turned out not to be as bad as I’d imagined. Just beating myself up for things that have happened to me lately that I haven’t been able to control. Anyway, today’s show was spectacular and everybody involved did a great job. The only real problem we had was a malfunction in the sound equipment that we had to postpone the opening for. It was a better day than I’ve had in a while, to be honest. Well, I have the next two days off and I’m not sure what I’m gonna do, but I’m gonna see what I can do.
Well, today was the day of the big gala opening for the 35th season and Les Miserables. And I fucked it all up because I did things that I knew I wasn’t supposed to do, like making noise backstage because there was a prop in the way of a cord and I knocked it over. Then, on part of our barricade, I got an important part of the stage equipment stuck on it and it was late coming in for the next scene. When the lights came up for that scene, it was only halfway in and you could see the backstage area. The big opening night, the one they waited ten years for, and I just fucked in up. I should’ve listened to Kap and found a real job, one that I could fuck something small up and not feel as bad as I do now. I went to the after party where all the cast members I ran into kept telling me ‘good job.’ No, I didn’t do a good job. If I’d done a good job, the audience would’ve seen a sewer instead of the god-damned back-stage area and it would’ve been silent during the scenes where it needed to be. I left the party and just stayed by myself until my ride came out. I did a horrible job tonight, and I have the feeling it’s only gonna get worse.
Well, we had our first live audience tonight and they loved the show, even though there were still problems behind the scenes. Today is the opening gala, and the theatre’s 35th anniversary. I’ll try to let people know how it went later on, but I may be really tired by then.